There are people I’ve met in my life who give off an amazing, powerful energy. A positive energy. Like you can almost see it just radiating off of them. They’re magnetizing and I want to be around them more and more because they make me feel positive too. I’m happy to be around them. They inspire me. Tonight, I had the most amazing opportunity to spend some time with them… doing yoga, some powerful writing, some emotional sharing – all in a “manifestation workshop” that was over way too soon.
Thanks to my friend Melissa… I was invited to attend a Manifestation Workshop in Sioux Falls put on by the amazing Jennifer Pasitloff. I began following Jennifer’s blog and on Facebook a couple of months ago. But it was during my recent one month unemployment that I found myself seeking inspiration and solace in her messages.
Jennifer leads week-long writing and yoga workshops in wonderful places like California, Italy and Hawaii. And it’s on my bucket list to attend one someday. That someday is probably a ways out in the future – but tonight I got a tiny glimpse of what it would be like. Melissa invited Jennifer to Sioux Falls. Bought her a plane ticket and promised her that she’d get a room full of open-minded women ready to manifest something wonderful. Jennifer agreed and Melissa made good on her promise. I believe there were 40 of us who experienced this journey of opening ourselves up to all that is possible in our lives.
It was everything I hoped it would be and more. I laughed. I cried. I sweat my ass off. Thought I was gonna pass out. I reflected on who I am. What’s holding me back? I threw away my “pile of shit” excuses and gave thanks for those who love and support me. Attending one of her longer retreats is an even bigger goal. The energy in the room blew my mind. All the women there were so courageous and so much fun. I wish I could do a better job of describing the experience, but perhaps that’s what made it so special. It’s a feeling that is just too awesome to put into words.
When I heard that Jennifer was coming, I cried. I had to attend. But I had been unemployed for a month and was literally broke. Credit cards maxed out. I swallowed my pride and tapped Melissa. She floated me the money and got me registered. I cannot thank her enough because this is something I just couldn’t miss. When you’re going through something as life-changing as a layoff, things can get pretty dark. Even though it wasn’t my fault that I lost my job, I felt embarrassed. I felt like a failure. I still felt like maybe if I had done something different, I would still have my job. I watched as my money slowly disappeared. I was scared to my very core. But I kept my chin up. I went into survival mode. I spent quality quality time with my children – because at the end of the day, that’s all that mattered. Not how much money was in the bank. I was scared to ask Melissa for the money. But, going back to where I started this post, she is one of the most kind, positive women I’ve ever met. And I knew, I just knew, that asking her was safe. I knew she would understand why I needed to be there. I am so very grateful.
I got home tonight after a wonderful meal, some tasty drinks and great laughter with a small group of wonderful women and I was tired. I wanted to write this post while the experience was so fresh. But it’s late. I’m tired. I have to work tomorrow. And then I remembered one of the exercises from earlier tonight. Get rid of those ridiculous excuses. So that’s exactly what I did. I sat down to write here. Something I haven’t done in way, way too long. And it’s liberating. I’m still tired. But I’m happy. I’m content. I feel blessed and satisfied.